One of my most favorite family photos from 63 years ago. I notice the smiles, the bright eyes, the togetherness of my beautiful family. Let me introduce you.

After I make a request.

We’ll start with the beautiful woman on the right-hand side. She’s my sweet mama. Her name will forever be Beverly Harriet. Her favorite name was Mom. Her girlfriends called her Bev. Her lifeline started in June 1934, and her life ended on June 30, 2016. She taught me how to cook, sew, and laugh. Some of my funniest memories are with my mom. And some of the most bittersweet.

Next to her is Lorrinda Allyce. She’s my sweet sister. Oh, sure, we fought. But as the years became more difficult in our lives, we grew closer and closer. We truly love each other. Forever. She was born in February 1955. I call her “sis” and “Lori.” We were each other’s pillar-of-strength after my parents passed away. We “joked” about being orphans.

The handsome man sitting next to Lori is our talented father Donovan Richard (“Dick”). He braved the Korean War and loved his job as a Minneapolis police officer. He bought a very used guitar when he was in Korea and entertained his fellow troops. His assigned battleground was one of the fiercest. He was born on September 28, 1928, and we said goodbye on August 4, 2010.

I was the lucky one to sit on his lap as he held me tight so I wouldn’t fall. He was my rock, even when our words were tough between us. He protected me. We laughed until the tears ran down our faces. He taught me how to make a guitar sing and play complicated board and card games. One of our last times together was when we played guitars at the Marion County Senior Center in Flippin, Arkansas. Our very last time together was two days before he passed away.

Then came Alzheimer’s. Perhaps it’s easier for me to call it “the disease that robs.” It robs the memories from those afflicted, and it robs the time we get to spend with our loved ones who we watch gradually fall away from us.

Much has happened since my last posts in 2019. Tears still flow easy. Grateful for a loving Savior to hold me through the valleys and the mountaintops. Over time, I’ll fill you in.

You’ll be seeing posts again. Hopefully many. I’m now officially retired from a job that was difficult, but one I always appreciated. On the hard days, I told myself that at least the job kept my brain exercised.

From my previous posts, readers could see that I first lost my dad to Alzheimer’s in 2010 and then I lost my mom to Alzheimer’s and vascular dementia in 2016. Seven years ago, my husband Chuck Knapp assisted in the development with BOB-FM 106.1 radio to set apart five hours of radio on the “longest day” in June as a fundraiser for the Alzheimer’s Association. Our next broadcast is Friday, June 19, 2026. Please tune in or livestream at KLCI – My BOB Country | TOTAL Country BOB FM. And then consider making a donation to the Alzheimer’s Association through MY BOB COUNTRY (either online at The Longest Day Broadcast on BOB FM – BOB Total Country or at 763-450-0500). A day filled with hope, optimism, and stories of loss.

Friday, June 19, 2026 – From 10:00 a.m. to 3:00 p.m. (central time).

I will make an announcement around 10:10 a.m. on June 19, 2026, that will be difficult. Perhaps you are reading this post as a result of this announcement.

During difficult times, reach out to Jesus. He is the way, the truth, and the life. Our rock. Our salvation. Our eternity.

As always, you can contact me at cheryl@cherylcrofootknapp.com.

Psalm 34:18 (ESV) – The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.

Psalm 147:3 (ESV) – He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

REGIFTED GRACE: The Magazine (Issue 3) focuses on that question.

This issue will encourage you to see beyond your storms and frustrations, especially in caregiving. When we go through difficult circumstances, we can feel very flawed, perhaps shamed or depressed. Or both.

God promises that we are flawless in His eyes.

The digital magazine is FREE. And it’s just for you! A number of talented authors had you in mind when they wrote it.

Click the link below to begin reading THE caregiving magazine for encouragement. Please let us hear from you with your comments!

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REGIFTED GRACE was launched to remind you that you’re not alone, to offer resources and research, and to let you know you are appreciated and loved. Most of the contributors have walked through times of loss, grief, caregiving, and more. In other words, we may have walked in your shoes and want to help you discover the value and collateral beauty in serving others.

Issue Number Two includes a son’s frustration with his dad’s disease, a mom’s pain through the loss of her infant daughter, how to experience grace, a daughter’s discovery of defining moments, a daughter’s touching realization in caregiving for her mom, a woman’s journey in growing her faith in God, and special devotion nuggets.

The grace is always greener on God’s side!

We would love to hear from you. We are accepting submissions for future issues, and please let us know if you have a topic or question that you’d like us to tackle in future issues. Be richly blessed.

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Are you discouraged? Are you a caregiver? Caregivers, whether professional or family, are humble servants who carry a difficult yoke, often all by themselves. And I want to tell you THANK YOU!

The new e-magazine entitled “REGIFTED GRACE” is launched to encourage those who encourage others, to convey you’re not alone, to offer resources and research, and to let you know you are appreciated and loved.

Additionally, REGIFTED GRACE:The Magazine seeks to educate, encourage, and provide resources to those impacted by long-term illness, often from a vantage point of Alzheimer’s. We have walked in your shoes or are there right now. And we want to lead you to discover the collateral beauty in serving others and the belief that the grace is always greener on God’s side.

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Blessings!

I miss the softness of your voice, because I listened.

I miss the softness of your hands, because I held them.

I miss the softness of your lips, because I kissed them.

I miss the softness of your eyes, because I gazed into them.

I miss the softness of your heart, because I knew it.

I miss the softness of your soul, because I felt it.

I miss the softness of your tears, because I wiped them away.

I miss the softness of your smile, because we laughed.

I miss the softness of your skin, because I stroked your face.

I miss the softness of your hugs, because we shared them.

I miss the softness of your love, because we shared it.

Excerpt from “UNDEFEATED INNOCENCE” (ch. 11, p. 193)

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What do you miss, and what have you gained?

What do you want God to do for you?

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It’s okay to fight with a disease like Alzheimer’s or cancer–for a season. There were plenty of times I wanted to kick the daylights out of that foul disease for stealing both my parents. Instead, ultimately God wanted me to adorn myself with the virtue of meekness, moving forward with gentleness and resiliency. It is better to diffuse than to be right or to fight. I don’t want to inhibit others or myself from encountering intimacy with God.

People do detoxes to regain physical health and remove poisonous toxins which build up over time. Removing physical toxins can be harsh—with headaches, fatigue, intestinal issues, even depression. We feel lousy before we feel better.

Similarly, purging spiritual toxins like pride, self-gratification, jealousy, and unforgiveness is necessary to maintain spiritual health. These toxins drop into our spirit like a cat jumping on the countertop when no one is watching—we don’t see it happening, but we see the destruction left behind. Spiritual toxins hinder our ability to abide in God’s grace, and they must be continually purged. Like physical toxins, spiritual toxins accumulate without recognizing them until something is unhealthy or broken. A doctor shows us our physical toxins—God directs us to our spiritual ones.

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I loved spending the last years of my parents’ lives with them, but caregiving often left me at the end of my rope—the perception of not being able to take another step because my soul was numb from the heaviness. The end of the rope requires us to expend emotional energy solely on survival and the need to find something greater than ourselves to carry the load. That’s Jesus.

Jesus demonstrates abundant grace through the worst storms. But I must be willing to reach the end of myself, for when I get there, He’s there with an endless pitcher of grace to pour out. He has one with your name on it, too.

There are times when it seems like giving up is easier than dealing with a life that becomes a puzzle with half of the pieces missing. In those times, God wants me to call out for Him so He can bring heaven to me. He feels my tears. He wants me to experience the tidal wave of His protection.

Fortunately, I learned that when I’m poor in spirit and call out for God’s help, God won‘t say, “How can I break you?” Instead, He says, “How can I help you?” His offer of help welcomes me into His presence, and heaven becomes my permanent address.

Excerpt: UNDEFEATED INNOCENCE (ch. 1, pp.18-20)

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I read their gut-wrenching words and pound my fists. I walked in their shoes, yet sit clueless how I should take away their agony. I despise “should” because it’s a word of shame. But that’s how I feel — ashamed that I can’t find words to help them. So goes another morning on a social media dementia support group.

Someone needs prayer because her loved one wandered away. Another aches because his loved one passed. Another regrets complaining how hard it was to be a caregiver — now all she wishes for is one more smile or “I love you.” Some feel their sacrifice is killing them and can’t wait until it’s over.

So, my heart cries.

Online support groups were a lifeline during my mom’s Alzheimer’s battle as I tried to balance her needs with mine. But balance is subjective. The disease caused my mom to weave from side to side as she walked down a hallway, and it caused me to emotionally weave from side to side when I responded to emergencies and balanced them with work, marriage, and sleep.

I stay in these support groups hoping to help them all — I was a caregiver! But on this morning, I was clueless. I was an eyewitness to this wretched disease twice. Yet I felt failure, which contradicted my belief that God called me to minister to caregivers.

So God took me for a walk — me, Him and the worship music playing in my ears. Coincidence that Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns played on my playlist? God knows when we feel like we tried again and failed. I heard the lies: I’m no good at ministry or writing, and I can’t help anybody. 

He reminded me that He calls us for His purpose (Romans 8:28). He didn’t choose me to do everything for everyone. That’s His job. Mine is to contribute in accordance with the calling He gives me. I can help some of the people some of the time, but I can’t help all of the people all of the time. Only God does that. He has called me to write, point caregivers to God’s grace, and encourage them to find collateral beauty instead of collateral damage. If they rebuke God’s grace, I move on. Even Jesus moved on.

God desires my obedience, not my sacrifices. Obedience is a response to a request to do something. Sacrifice causes or permits injury for the sake of something else. God said,

“For I desire mercy, not sacrifice, …” Hosea 6:6 (NIV)

and that we are to

“Walk in obedience to all I command you, …” Jeremiah 7:23 (NIV)

Caregiving is physically grueling, mentally exhausting, and spiritually depleting. I wasn’t asked to sacrifice my life for it, only be obedient. 

Sacrifice is Jesus — sent to earth alone to die broken and alone in order for us to receive eternal life. 

Obedience was Abraham’s willingness to kill his son, or Daniel’s concession to spend a night in the lion’s den because he was unwilling to stop praying, or my determination to take Mom’s frantic calls when she didn’t know where she was or what she was doing. Jesus said,

“… whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.” Matthew 25:40 (NIV)

That’s collateral beauty. That’s obedience. 

God didn’t call me to help everyone, just lead them toward God’s grace. What I gave to my parents and Jesus was obedience (a living sacrifice), not a killing sacrifice (a burnt offering).

“And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.” Micah 6:8 (NIV)

And the support groups? If God leads me to respond, I will. If God leads me to be quiet, I will. I will rest in obedience to the one who sacrificed it all and share God’s grace and mercy with them through my obedience to Him. 

Copyright © 3/2018 Cheryl Crofoot Knapp and Regifted Grace Ministry LLC.

A special thanks to Judith Levy for offering this guest post filled with practical advice when faced with a diagnosis of Alzheimer’s.

The dilemma of writing an educational article on Alzheimer’s Dementia is, where do I begin?  Do I remain objective as I relate my professional background as an Occupational Therapist who could leave problems behind at the end of the day?  Do I start with the issues that I encountered as my parent and I navigated the medical system, the home care agencies, the caregivers with their varied personalities and the costs?  Do I start with my own frustrations as I assumed more and more of the care which lasted for a decade?

The direction that I’ve ended up choosing is as varied and as subjective as each individual affected by or dealing with this disease.  But being the concrete thinker that I am, this is what I decided:  I’ve found that the best place to start is to be objective and put pen to paper.  Here goes . . .

Write down what you see that is off with your loved one.  What’s changed?  Do you think it’s medical?  What are your concerns? What are your questions?  What was it that happened that made you first begin to question the difference?  List everything that you think might be important.  Then make an appointment with your loved one’s physician.  Don’t forget to bring these questions with you and try to get them all answered.

Do some preparation before your appointment.  List all the medications that your parent is taking.  Specify the dosage and what time of day they take them.  Have they been forgetting to take them?  Are they being taken correctly?  Could there an interaction between their medications or with the foods that they are eating?   Has your parent had physical changes that you’ve noticed: lost weight; balance issues; vision changes; inappropriate behavior and/or forgetfulness?  Write down all of this.

When you go to the appointment, try to have another person go with you.  That way if you need to meet privately with the doctor, your parent can be attended to in the waiting room.  Take notes during your visit.  You can refer back to them later.

Once you have a diagnosis, evaluate how you will proceed.  There is a myriad of support groups available to you. Your state’s Alzheimer’s Association is a great place to start.  Check if your church/synagogue has a program in place which will benefit you.  Consider looking for a geriatric care manager who can help you navigate the system.  Don’t forget to ask your physician.  Importantly, ask your friends.  So many families are dealing with this issue that they may have already found out about local services.  Don’t reinvent the wheel.

Something to consider are your parent’s legal forms.  Are they up-to-date?  Do you have the Medical Power of Attorney, Advanced Directive, Will, Medicare/Medicaid numbers, Social Security numbers?  Are they current?  Where are they kept?  If possible, consider taking a picture of them with your phone so you have access to them when you need them.  Don’t forget to photograph a list of important phone numbers, medications, and dosages; keep all this information together.

Once you’ve gotten your framework in place, put it aside.  Things will work out and you will deal with issues as they come up.  Then take a giant step back and breathe.  Live in the moment.  Laugh in the moment.  Enjoy your parent and be thankful for your time together.

Judith A. Levy, EdM, OTR, is the author of “Activities to Do with Your Parent Who Has Alzheimer’s Dementia” (Amazon).  A graduate of Boston University’s Sargent College with a degree in Occupational Therapy, she also received a Master’s Degree in Allied Health Education from Rutgers University.  Mrs. Levy has been a practicing Occupational Therapist specializing in adult rehabilitation for over forty years. For the past ten years, she was the carer for her mother who suffered with Alzheimer’s Dementia.

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“Hello? This is the nursing station. We need to talk to you about your dad.”

The phone call I always dreaded announced the beginning of my father’s final journey. He fought the good fight, and it was time for him to go to his eternal home. Alzheimer’s was being defeated by grace.

He was dying. The nursing home asked me if we intervene or let him die. Yes, I helped mom with all the memory care, legal, medical, and financial decisions. But choosing how and when he dies? That was August 3, 2010, and he passed on August 4, 2010.

So here I am again, six years later.

“Hello? This is the nursing station. We need to talk to you about your mom.”

The phone call I dreaded announces that my mother’s final journey has begun. She fought the good fight, and it was time for her to go to her eternal home. Alzheimer’s was finally being defeated by grace. Again.

The nurse says, “We believe she’s having a heart attack. She’s struggling and asks about you. We told her you’re on your way. She smiled, and we’re taking her to the emergency room.”

The sound of my name brings comfort to my mama, and she still remembers me. Oh, mama. I’m heartbroken. We love each other like crazy.

I nervously gather up my things to go to the hospital, take a deep breath and begin the treacherously emotional drive to the hospital.

I call out to God. “Please don’t take her until I get there. Not yet, Lord. I need to be there.”

I arrive at the hospital, and hurriedly park the car near the ER entrance. I run through the automatic doors. My heart races; words are few. The young woman at the desk instantly escorts me to the family conference room. My heart sinks when the doctor immediately enters the room.

His grim countenance stands face to face with me in the faintly-lit room. During our brief conversation, a frenzied nurse enters the room twice, needing the doctor’s urgent attention regarding my mom. He presses me for a family directive. I tell him, because we’re legal guardians, we need a court order to make this decision. He says he doesn’t care about any court order. He needs my decision right now. Through torrents of salty tears, I plead with him. As they take me to the ER suite, a nurse tells me her heart stopped. I race in to hold her soft, warm hand one last time. That was June 30, 2016.

Twice I’ve been a primary caregiver. Twice I’m asked to make end of life decisions. Twice I’ve been challenged to find the best in my relationships, keep my faith strong, balance career and caregiving, and love my parents the way that they deserved to be loved.

Experience taught me three keys of caregiving that helped me keep things in perspective. These keys will impact your best during the times that feel your worst.

The first key is to lead. We lead by being a bold decision-maker. We know the loved one better than anyone else, as caregiver. We lead by helping their lives be the best days of their lives. This key mentors you how to be a champion advocate and life manager.

The second key is to learn. You are the nexus between knowing and doing on behalf of someone else. Study the research and details of the disease. Discover clinical trials. Learn about quality of care, especially how it relates to the disease you’re facing. This key stresses the importance of being the resident expert.

The third key is to love. Love your caree, love yourself, and learn how to release and mend broken relationships. This key focuses on relevance, peace, and tools to achieve restoration and forgiveness in your relationships.

These keys are vital to you as caregiver and the ones receiving your care. The word “rodeo” is often used to describe the caregiving experience. It stems from a Spanish word that means “to surround.” That’s exactly what we do as a caregiver. Most family caregivers go through only a “first rodeo.” Some family caregivers like me have to saddle up and ride again. Professional caregivers experience the journey many times over. We give and receive our best when we surround the person receiving our care.

Through life as a caregiver, I learned the importance of the roles of leading, learning, and loving. I am developing these powerful keys and will share them one by one in the future.

Until then, from my book, UNDEFEATED INNOCENCE, always know that your role as a caregiver is vital.

Because I Caregave

I miss the softness of your hands, because I held them.

I miss the softness of your voice, because I listened.

I miss the softness of your lips, because I kissed them.

I miss the softness of your eyes, because I gazed into them.

I miss the softness of your heart, because I knew it.

I miss the softness of your soul, because I felt it.

I miss the softness of your tears, because I wiped them away.

I miss the softness of your smile, because we laughed.

I miss the softness of your skin, because I stroked your face.

I miss the softness of your hugs, because we shared them.

I miss the softness of your love, because I shared it.

Please share your comments below in response to either or both of these two questions:

Which of the three keys–leading, learning, loving–are the toughest for you?

What do you want God to do for you?

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